Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Rainbow Brite And El Camino Part 11b

Fandom: Original
Pairing: Brite/Camino
Setting: The Car/Fort Lonesome
Summary: laughing in the car en route to Camino's house
Rating: R for language and depictions
Owned By: Me
A/N- This is an in between scene. Meaning between parts 5 and 11a Why? My generation likes skip around. We believe in the viewer's/reader’s ability to keep up. Blame Quentin Tarantino. (Love that guy/his work!) Seriously? Reservior Dogs and Pulp Fiction are 2 of my favorite films, dude. Guy Ritchie (Lock, Stock And Two Smoking Barrels, Snatch and currently Sherlock Holmes) is like the British version of him. So awesome! Oops, I’m gushing. Let me stop. Anyway, if you need to go back and refresh., click away, my friends. Also, I’ve noticed some inconsistencies in the story and format. Such as: The camera is now a character integral to said story instead of just a note taker or watcher. There used to be chapter titles which I’ve done away with. The story itself was being written in play or script format and Camino And Brite were AKA E.C. and R.B. Also I forgot to mention an important detail. Actually, it was meant to be written in. I will fix that now. As for chapters, titles and abbreviations, they’re gone from now on. I approach my work like an experiment. Then when I’m more comfortable I can do away with what I don’t need. Anyway, sorry for the confusion. And finally this part went off in it’s own direction. But that’s how my muse rolls. It makes me smile and I hope you do too.



Rainbow Brite And El Camino Part 11b

(Back in Orchard Land or Fort Lonesome)

“I hate this thing.” “It smells like you.”
“Brite, what?” “What the fuck does that even mean?”

Camino took his right hand off the shifter and tugged at her oversized sleeve.

“It stinks and it’s ugly.” “It like a rest stop flyer.”
“Thanks.” His laugh lacked enthusiasm.

Brite punched him in the shoulder and gave him a look that said, "That's not what I meant and you know it, Cowboy."

Camino pretended to flinch.

“No, I mean, all it needs is an add below the skull that says, “Eats.”
“What?” Camino glanced over at Brite’s hooded head, confused.
“Gas station?” “Rest stop?” “Oil?” Brite made motions with her hands while she talked.
“Oh.” He finally got her reference and laughed heartily.
“If the fucking skull had blinking lights instead of girly pink sequins-"
"You're girl!" He pointed out. "I know!" "I've seen!" He mimicked her wild hand gestures from earlier in their conversation.
Brite ignored his excited comment and kept talking. "-and the car had an air freshener that smelled like microwave burritos the picture would be complete.”
He laughed harder this time and managed to choke out, “Honey, you’re kind of out there sometimes.”
“I know.” She laughed. “Gotta love it.”

Gotta love her.


After what he felt was an appropriate pause he went in for the kill. "You should learn to drive this thing." He said, they drove down the road. "Get you a set of hand controls." "You'll be set."

What Camino had said was being drowned out Brite’s swirling thoughts. They apparently wanted acknowledgement so they made themselves known.

“Dude, where the fuck are we going?” “To your house?” “We been together, what?” “18 months?”
“Can’t you just say a year and a half?” “I mean, we didn’t have a kid or nothing.”

Simultaneous thoughts processed. Thank god.

“Now who’s out there, Camino?” “Seriously, I’ve never been to your house once.” “What’s going on?”
“You’re avoiding the subject.” He patted the steering wheel.
“So are you.” She said. “Besides, she’d never allow it. The driving thing.”
“Your mother?”
“Yes.”
“She’s got issues, dude.”
“So do I.” “That whole road rage on foot thing.”
“Yeah, I’ve seen that live and personalized.” “This afternoon in fact.”
“Shut the fuck up.”

Laughing at her antics, Camino cranked up the stereo and drove on.









Monday, December 19, 2011

Wading In Caramel (Revised)

Wading In Caramel
2 December 2011

You could smell the ice in the air these last few days
Even though this is Tampa Bay we do get cold fronts
It was like I had a craving for the old ways that I could not shake
But I would have had to trust another shape to name me

Like, "Welcome back to the snow!" "You're still so small!" "So no one here has to think about you getting old!"
"And you're still a shit head for thinking like that. I got to go."


I'm somehow required to be close to something I perpetuated but never was
I can't live up to my own legend anymore and I don't want to
Take back the glory, tear down the statue you built inside your brains
Stop telling stories about me like you know anything
I'm not Rocky, I didn't win the gold chain
After three rounds I was out cold laid

In their eyes I was perfect,
But in my mind I wore a mask and gloves
I don't have stars on my skin or stripes or spots or fame
But I wear glasses and slashes and cuts and big stains

When I laugh it doesn't linger because I know what's good won't last

Life is disappointing, transient, dissolvable
Like rain moments evaporate
A sugar syrup that can seize up
If the stalks were solid, they'd stay that way
But now they're lowly granules in someone's cake

Life does not ask
It demands attention and consideration

Why are we so dirty?
Why do I feel like I'm wading in caramel?
I'm so sticky, get this shit off me!

An unfettered life without ego, the fucker will ask again

Can I have it?
Do you need it?
Do you want some?
Why can't I please?
Sex might work better than misery

Shit makes me restless, wishing for my child hood
As if by some magic trick I could take it back and make it better
I'm from Western NY and I was born with a small town ideology
I feel corrupted and lazy
Is this what happens when you move from the country to the city?

Do you become a memory of who you used to be?
A convertible version in mint condition
Is this thing a hard or soft top?
Can I come inside or is the door locked?

I want to be a soul inside a body that isn't so much like me
I'm sour curd instead of milk and honey
In the land of promise for everyone but me
I've stopped comparing circumstances or complaining

Really, what's the point?
I can't figure out how to use it
So now it bores me
Yeah, yeah, flat screen TV!
Yeah, yeah, the hybrid-SUV!

All this music!
The hum and chattering!

Hyper-aware of everything around me to the point of fear and paranoia
These thoughts run my head and I can feel the last 2 healthy cells gasp for breath
Living on the fringes in debt and yet society owes me negative nothing
My eyes itch, my brain hurts from flexing under the weight of my skull cap

These images are pin pricks along my skin
The blood has darkened and become coagulant
A burnt orange crust-like regret has formed on my elbows
The pain instilled, I keep moving without looking
And this soul is killing me because it wants things it cannot have
Objects, feelings, lovers that are beyond my grasp

I did not get up to sketch it out or write it down
But tried to sleep instead without success
When I dream lately it's about my brother in the roll of me
Walking around the streets of Ybor with a sketchpad in his hand
His modified paint brushes hanging out his back pockets
It's so like him to redesign something so basic
Now I know where my foam went and why there's horse hair in my trash can
I smile momentarily before I let it fade
The truth is that's not him but I guess I could see him making it work
Instead of fucking it up like me
Always so close but still so lame
With three quarters jingling in my capri's
I head home in the dark back to reality

I put the change on his stand and say, "It's not much, but it's something."

He nods as I walk away
I shove my revisited campaign for sanity, my crutches into the familiar tight space between my bedroom door and the race
I don't know if anyone ever wins but we're both exhausted and apparently untrained
But I'm not unfazed and I still hate it all the same

Immutable/Message Of Love

Here's 2 shorties for my ladies. (: And I know this isn't Camino 11b, d. I'll get to it, trust me.

Immutable
19 Dec 11

She told me I was a rainbow
But I told her it only takes one blow
She didn't see the gray in me
Only her philosophy
She wanted to test my theory as if it was just a query
She puffed out her cheeks and let it go

Then when I blew out she said, “Oh, no!” “Well, it was fun while it lasted though.”

Your colors are beautiful
Mmm, you glow
Your colors are immutable
And I wanted you to know




Message Of Love
19 Dec 11

According to the data from my lungs these wounds are superficial
No scar tissue is expected to form around the molds they just put in
And I don't know why it bothers me that these parts work better than the real thing
But it does

PVC pipe and the same compounds as Plastique
I could blow up at any second
Yeah that’s me
With a boom, boom and a wink, wink
I breathe out and the world shrinks
I am what god sees from above when no one notices my message of love




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